Living each day much muchier
If you have an old habit of competing and comparing yourself with others
then you are still living your life like a sperm. GROW UP!!
Stumbling is a part of learning. Confusion, frustration and getting it wrong a bunch of times come with challenging yourself.
If it’s not hard, you’re not trying.
It started last Sunday with dance class. Intermediate level is too easy. Advanced level is too hard. I’m stuck in the middle. I hate (hate, hate) being the fumbly one who doesn’t get it.
I tried until even the teacher got frustrated with me. Everyone else just picked it up and had fun. I ended up in this dark little fuming state, not knowing what to do with the ugly feeling of being flawed.
I also spent the week muddling with Prezi, a new(ish) presentation software that an executive director challenged me to use. It was about taking the next step in professional presentation and doing something cool. That’s a good thing.
Yet, I spent the week feeling like a total tard, even after the presentation was over and done with. It impressed a bunch of people, but I knew it could and should have been better.
I’m learning to be kind to myself. I buy flowers, dress nicely and get enough sleep (mostly) but how to be kind when facing flaws?
How do I ignore the overwhelming need to have the earth swallow me up and instead, face it and work through it?
I imagine myself as someone else I’m helping. It’s easier to be patient and kind, not demanding and shaming.
I remind myself that comparisons are unfair. Everyone has strengths and weaknesses. They’re packaged together differently in each person.
Furthermore, nobody wins compared to perfection. I have a lot to offer. I have a lot to be happy about
Imperfection is a spice of life.