Living each day much muchier
The right decision feels right.
There’s a moment in the first Harry Potter book where Harry finds the wand most suited to him. It’s captured wonderfully in the movie and you can watch the moment on YouTube if it’s been awhile. Harry knows he needs to make a choice that’s crucial to his destiny, but he’s completely out of his depth.
Some of the wands cause lights to break and everything around him to shatter. Harry doesn’t mean for any of this havoc to happen. He’s shocked by the effects and scared of doing more harm. There are very real consequences to waving an unsuitable wand.
We spend the first few decades of our lives making dubious decisions and waving wands that aren’t meant for us. There’s always fallout. People get hurt and lives change. As much as we’d like to make the right choices all of the time, that’s not how life works. No-one escapes the carnage and lots of us are even now still waving the unsuitable wands that were given to us.
When Harry finally stumbles on the right wand, the magic inside of him wells up in a warm glow. The magic isn’t inside the wand, it’s inside him, but it needs the right decision in which to flourish.
Our decisions liberate or stifle our potential and they bring out the best and worst in us. Yet, we look everywhere except inside ourselves for the answers. What’s normal? What do other people do? What do they want? What’s the right thing? What would you do?
Asking those questions is not a weakness. It leads to good information. The answers are within you, but you’re not (or probably not) a reservoir of profound spiritual knowledge. What’s within you is a version of the truth that needs context. Ollivander guides Harry to the right wand using his best educated guesswork and experience but ‘the wand chooses the wizard. Its not always clear why.’ Your search needs guidance but at the end, only you know how you feel.
Your decision will choose you, if you let it. Sit with it for a while. Try it on with your imagination and see how it feels. Does it feel oppressive but it makes someone else happy? Are you just not sure about it? Remember, there will be consequences to waving an unsuitable wand.
Does it excite you. Does it give you a warm glow? Do you feel a bit giddy and scared but also ‘holy shit yes’?
The right decision has resonance and meaning. The right decision feels right.
The hardest thing about the road not taken is that you never know where it might have led.
Whatever you decide, don’t let it be because you don’t think you have a choice.